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What this can feel like

From the inside, it often sounds like this.

  • You’ve been told “everyone has highs and lows” and it hasn’t felt remotely useful.
  • Depressive episodes feel different from the depressions you read about — sometimes more agitated, sometimes more flat than sad.
  • You’ve developed a wary relationship with your own good moods because of how they’ve gone before.
  • Sleep has an outsized effect on your stability.
  • Past therapists have been well-meaning but not equipped to track this with you.