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What this can feel like
From the inside, it often sounds like this.
- You wake up tired before the day has done anything.
- Things you used to look forward to feel like obligations to perform.
- You can read the same paragraph four times and not retain it.
- Sleep is either too much or not enough — rarely the right amount.
- You have a running internal monologue that talks to you the way you would never talk to anyone else.
- Small decisions feel disproportionately heavy. Big ones feel impossible.
- You’ve been performing okay-ness for so long that the people around you don’t fully know.