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What this can feel like

From the inside, it often sounds like this.

  • You feel disconnected from your baby in a way you can’t admit to anyone.
  • You cry without warning, or you can’t cry at all.
  • You’re afraid to tell your partner how heavy it actually is.
  • Your sleep deprivation is real and so is something underneath it that doesn’t resolve when the baby sleeps.
  • You’re having intrusive thoughts that horrify you and that you’re terrified to name.
  • You feel like a failure for not feeling the way the cards and the baby books said you would.